I’m 43 years old and have wroked for 20 years. I once took a risk and joined a startup, and it brought me some success. But I have nerver paused for a period of time to do the things I trully want to do - to read, to create, to design. I’ve never done that. In the past, perhaps circumstances didn’t allow it, but now there is no real pressure for survival. I hope that at some point, I can set everything aside and pursue what I truly want to do, even if it’s only for half a year or a full year.
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I’ve been working in my current team for almost five years. Looking back, there are probably fewer than five things I’ve truly done well. Over these five years, I feel that I haven’t used my time well. This isn’t a team issue or a cultural issue - it’s that I never really sought my own vision. And even when I occasionally caught a glimpse of it, I didn’t pursue it. This is something worth reflecting on.
This morning, I prayed for the design work I need to do. Although I wasn’t very willing at first, I still prayed in the end. Some people say that prayer helps us sort out our priorities, and that’s absolutely true. When I pray, it means I’m willing to to submit to God’s will and his arrangements; when I refuse to pray, it means that I want to be the master and take control myself. The hard truth is that praying always brings better results than not praying.
The valuations of today’s tech companies are extremely high, somewhat reminiscent of the internet bubble of the 1990s. This is why some say we are experiencing a new AI bubble. But this time is different. During the dot-com era, having a website alone could attract investment and receive a high valuation—even if it had little real value. AI, however, is not the same. Whether in daily life or in professional fields like design and coding, AI offers practical, tangible benefits that people can truly experience. Because of this, there are still clear differences between the two eras.
AI has increased our work efficiency. Tasks that used to take four or five days can now be finished in just an hour. This is a good thing, but on the other hand, it makes our hearts more impatient. Since things can be done so fast, we start wanting them to be even faster—faster and faster. This impatience affects our work, then our daily life, and eventually even the state of our spiritual life.
Yeasterday, I shared the 2025 thanksgiving topics with my family. Writing down my gratidue has become increasingly difficult for me. I tried my best to recall the grace God has given to our family and to me over the past year - reviewing it bit by bit, drawing it out little by little from my reluctant human nature as I try to look back on God. I am deeply grateful that God loves me and has not given up on me.